Somehow I made it back to bed this evening. What a day. Between waking up early, getting ready, and running back and forth between classes, the gym, and work, it felt like this day would never end. It also help my sense of perseverance that I spent all week dreading the exam I had to take today for my Politics of Advanced Industrialized Nations (you know it's gonna be a killer exam when the acronym for your course title spells out P.A.I.N.).
When I finally made it back home from school at 10PM (something I haven't done since before I got married), I was not ready to make dinner very elaborate, so we ate a plate of sliced mango grapes, grapefruit, and apples. I must proudly admit that somehow I faithfully resisted the urge to stop by any drive-through on the way home.
At the end of these days, if I'm awake and aware enough to do so, I look back and wonder how it was that I survived. Chris reminded me this morning that if I could only make it through the next 24 hours, it'd be over. That's it. 24 Hours. Yet, somehow, this seemed like it would be my longest 24 hours yet, and I felt so discouraged.
But here I am: laying in bed, glancing over at the stack of student essays I have to grade by tomorrow morning, blogging, and feeling so relaxed. Maybe I should attribute this day's success to the hour I spent doing yoga... Or maybe it was Chris's wise council this morning. Or perhaps it was the silent prayers I kept repeating in my heart along the way.
Whatever the source of this day's success, it reminded me that maybe this is just what life is? When you're in the middle the most difficult tasks, it's hard to know how you're going to keep going; but if you keep pushing, just a little longer, you can lay your head down on your pillow at night, take a deep breath, and know that no matter what obstacles you'll find in your way next, you've survived them once before, so there's nothing keeping you from doing so again.
2 comments:
Congrats on finishing your crazy day! You're kind of amazing and I love you! I love the part about this being life. My mom and I always say, "Life keeps life-ing!" And sometimes we have to learn to BE the eye of the storm, cause the storm will rage around us but we can still have that peace and know that we will survive, like you said: you've survived them before and nothing is keeping you from doing so again. Thanks for blogging :)
chris offered some wise counsel. it helps when you only focus on 24 hours. you are a brilliant and talented woman. you can do it!! also, love that you're blogging :)
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