Just a little girl

I happened upon this great song by Lenka last week and I've been thinking a lot about what it says to me about life, and the experience of enduring through confusion. Regardless of how much detail you, my readers, are privy to in my day to day, you all have some insight regarding the challenges I've been facing as of recent, and this song surprisingly unveiled feelings I have been wrestling with in a whole manner. There are definitely many other lyrics I can relate to at this time, but this one seemed to encompass my dominant feelings of confusion, and I am really excited about sharing it.

It's a really peppy song, which might lead some to overlook the pained, conflicted message about growing up woven into its melodic tapestry...or maybe I'm just projecting my own feelings onto the lyrics. In either case, I believe Lenka is clearly torn, and while I would call it an optimistic song, it is not a "cheerful" song, which seemed to be the dominant adjective used in describing it online. I respectfully disagree. 

Lenka sings about the confusion that entails growing up. She's not really sure what she wants or how to go about getting it. All that seems certain of is that the path before her is unclear. She seems to have lost a sense of what she "should" do, and what she should want. I chose to share the first part of the song here, but anyone who hears it all the way through will notice that she hasn't settled on whether she wants her money or whether she is just going to sit back and "enjoy the show." In my opinion, therein lies her conflict: to continue moving forward in the direction she set out on, or to shift gears? I can also relate to the general exhaustion over the matter I hear in this song. 

You'll find the lyrics to the song below. Note that I added some emphasis to help readers understand the significance of the song from my point of you. Im obviously adding emphasis where I hear it, which gives you a little insight into my mind. 

I don't know if you have ever felt like a song has perfectly captured you in a moment, but I hope you'll check it out anyway since I'm a bit obsessed with it right now. I could talk about it forever, and I'd be thrilled to tell you why if you ever ask me in person, but I'll cut this short here. You can find the lyrics below.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
(I've tried) and I don't know why

 

Slow it down, make it stop or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot to be something I'm not

I'm a fool out of love 'cause I just can't get enough

 

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go, can't do it alone

(I've tried) and I don't know why

 

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

"The Show" by Lenka (emphasis added by me)

Also, I would like to take a minute to sincerely thank all those of you who have reached out in a private responses to my previous posts. You couldn't possibly imagine how truly comforting and inspiring it has been to read about your experiences facing similar feelings, and to sit and bounce ideas off of you. I am so grateful and humbled by the outpour of love and support from places I never would have expected it to come from. Honestly, thank you.